Poetry

Je Suis Tombé Par Terre

I stand upon the brink crest fallen,

For the abyss before me it has callen.

Do I leap? Do I reject the grass from beneath my feet?

As I stand betwixed both life and death

What is fate?

Fate, oh fate, what wondrous angels will you bring me?

To sing a song of rest upon me,

As their downy wings caress my face as I fall into their soft alabaster arms onto thy rest.

Or fate, sweet fate, will you bring me devils?

With wicked flames to lick and devour my flesh,

As I scream in torment a most vivid living hell.

For if I jump I will burn,

Because jumping is the prefix to burning.

As the abyss is never as empty as it seems,

For devils bring emptiness in their eyes to temp us mortals to leap to our demise.

When bones do break and tears do fall

The devils dance and angels fall,

I find myself once more upon the grassy brink.

Will I leap or continue to fall?



Rose Woman

She lays naked on a bed of roses.

Her dark hair entwines with their thorns.

Her lips, parted like the sweetest bud.

They are just as soft and as rare.

Her eyes shine like tear drops of dew,

Just as deep and twice as blue.

To every man a woman is a rose,

Delicate and beautiful with deadly poison thorns.


The Lake

Standing alone in the desolate place,

Gazing at my image upon the frozen lake,

I quiver beneath my bodice as the snow burns my skin.

I see a blacken shape appear beneath the ice,

Its hair flows free about its face

And deathly staring eyes.

I emit a gasp and break the ice

Freeing the dammed soul.

Her hand reached out and took my wrist,

And in one pull it was done,

Because that is when I met my fate,

By the lake so long ago.


Love: the Death of Souls and Sanity

My heart leaps, the pounding about my ears and chest fills me with such nauseating joy

That butterflies rebound themselves against my innards.

Is this love? Or a strange maddening disease which has been inflicted upon me by another person?

For if love existed would we be so quick to tangle ourselves in the presence of another?

To wear masks of joy and prospect when all we feel is death,

Death, loneliness and despair, the only true emotions that a true human can feel.

Not love,

Love in all its sickeningly sweet dreadful glory.

Forcing us to sell our souls to mortal devils who would see us fall and perish all in the name of love.

But who could we live without love, and the way it makes our lives feel desired and priceless?

How it makes every black, dismal and curse ridden day more bearable, liveable.

If love is to both heal and destroy us why we were not warned?

Warned against such foolish actions and emotions such as love, joy and attachment.

Instead of allowing us to become mindless creations obsessed with causing ourselves heartache.

Why allow us to continue the torment of love?

To seek refuge in mortal gods who would eventually harm us for their own enjoyment and wellbeing.

Are we mad? As love is the only madness that could infect the sanest of people.

Stress! Stress! Stress!

I've been sitting here for half an hour starting and restarting this blog.

Blogging + A Foul Mood = No Blog Ideas

I'm just going to blog about work like I usually do on here and then go do stuff.

Well I have given myself another week to officially finish the first novel of the Princosa series. And I mean finish, finish as in proof read and everything. Then it shall be off to an agent. Yippee! Gone forever! I don't know whether to be happy or sad about that. Aw well...there is always the sequel. But yeah I'm going to do a lot of work tonight once I get my bedroom organised. I need to resort my library and everything, which I am kinda looking forward too which is a little sad.

Oh! And I received this wonderful piece of artwork from HAPPYWISE in Indonesia of Kitsune from my shorts series.


The first ever piece of "fan art" drawn of one of my characters! It really brightened up my dreadful day. I dont care if it is big headed of me to post about it on my blog. It made me happy and I dont care.

R.

I'm Back!

I've decided to start blogging again for the millionth time. I should really learn to stick with these things. Most of the time I jump from one blogging site to another posting random blogs until I get bored, quit blogging and then start again on another site. So I am going to make this my proper one. No more hoping around the Internet for me. (Yeah even I don't believe me)

So I've been a seriously lazy writer lately and I mean more lazy than what I usually am, which is pretty bad. I have been working on the development of Maglish though which is at least something. I need to get back into writing properly again. I'll probably get back into the swing of things once I am back at university on Monday and I have an actual schedule. Maglish is coming along pretty well though. The grammatical rules are more concrete now it is just a case of building up the general vocabulary.
(In case anyone didn't know Maglish is my own personal language I made up myself to use in my novels and short stories)

On the good news front I haven't broken any of my new years resolutions yet. I've been behaving myself by not eating that much junk food and I have even dropped a jeans size. Yeah...I've been a fricken angel this year. I just have to get something published this year and I will be happy. It shouldn't be so hard right? (famous last words....)

Well I think that is all I have to say for today.

R.

In a Real Writing Mood

Moments ago I finished writing an entry in my dairy, a real life collection of my thoughts, thoughts that I dare not expressed in any of my blogs. Mainly it is a collection of my moanings, my complaints about the world around as well as the people who inhabit my world, though small it maybe. Writing in this journal has re-sparked my love of writing, as my concentration lately has been lacking. I guess all I needed was inspiration. Funny the inspiration that you can find in your everyday life. Am I so vain that I must write about my own life continuously? Or is it writing that I am addicted too? I seem to have this constant need to write, to scribble down everything and anything that pops into my head, whether that be fictional or a part of my day to day existence. I guess it is the writing. In fact that is probably my true addiction, not caffeine, not chocolate, but writing.

So Much Work To Do!

I have been procrastinating so much lately. Actually I am procrastinating as I speak.

At the moment I am working on several notebooks documenting the history of Princosa(TM) but I have been getting distracted so easily. You see this is a problem, as I am unable to start the redraft of my current novel until I am finished the more detailed history notes. I cant keep this history in my head any more, that is why I am writing it down. If I keep it in my head much longer it will keep getting changed and mashed up with every time I think about it. I really have to get this novel finished it is unprofessional of me to keep messing around. Also I have promised some selected fans the first 5 chapters of this novel before I send it to the publishers. Of course the manuscripts that they will be getting will be trademarked, copyrighted, etc. I really must get this finished for them.

On top of that I still have university work to do and exams coming up in May. I sometimes wish that my life was not so hectic. Either be a student or a writer, not both, but then again I don't like doing just the one thing. I am happiest when I am busy and hopefully tomorrow, though it be Easter, I will get plenty of work done with the free time that I have. Maybe get some programming and my novel history done.

A Quick Update While I Watch Cartoons

I was sitting watching X-men Evolution and I remembered that I have not up dated this in a while. Dont ask why but it did.

Well there has'nt been anything really new. I'm still in university, though currently panicing about a video game that I have to make for mulitmedia. I am planning something to do about bunny rabbits but I am still waiting to hear back from my professor about what he thinks about my idea. Hopefully he will like it because I really don't want to think up another one, esspecially now that I already have some of the sprites for the game. I just need the bad guys. Also I got a charming email from my university threatening to supend me if I dont get my tuition fee payments sorted. Its ok though, I can have them fixed by the deadline. Because as weird as this sounds, I would actually like to sit my exams this semester. Of course I did my christmas ones but I dont like the idea of working hard all of this semester for nothing.

Oh on a lighter more fresher note, I got the front of my hair bleached. I now look like Rogue from X-men, its pretty awesome, I am thinking about dying the streaks bright pink though because the bleach had made it look a little too blonde.

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Finally!

I Finally finished the next part of my online story. I thought i was never going to get around to it

http://the-kitsune.webs.com/

Check it out!